November 11th, 2003
Speed is on in the other room on HBO or one of those stations. Why do I have it on when I have it on vcr? weird. And how am I going to get rid of all these vcr tapes and get them on dvd? I'm tired of going from tapes to records to cds and then vcr's to dvd's. And ya know how all these recording artists are bitching about downloading music? I see it this way. Say, you have Nevermind the Bollocks on record. Then you might get it on cassette, and maybe even get that cool picture disk. Then later, you can't listen to any of those because you have no record player or tape player, so you have to buy the cd. You have now bought Nevermind the Bollocks four times. Did John Lydon or Steve Jones or Paul Cook go back into the studio four times and do four times more work and maybe even put another song on any of this stuff? No. But I have had to spend and spend to be able to keep listening to a song I paid for long long ago. If I download it off the internet, tough shit. How many houses do we all have to buy to listen to a song? Pirates? Hey, they've always been around, right? And it's hard to feel sorry for Madonna when someone downloads one of her songs after hearing that she paid $2,000 bucks on one outfit for her daughter, who will outgrow it in three months. It's her business; it's her money. Well, this is my business and this is my money. Besides, because of downloading music I bought stacks of Eminem stuff that I wouldn't have before. And if I really like someone, especially someone who I feel isn't a billionaire a billion times over, I'll go buy their cd. I owe it to them. I don't have any White Stripes on old records, or No Doubt, or Hole, or Smashing Pumpkins or Nine Inch Nails, or any other
musician(s) who I think are brilliant. I think they're all paranoid that we'll now hear the crap before we buy it and won't buy it.
I don't know why I'm writing on that, I had no intention to! I was going to write about how everything is only half-full when you open the package. What the hell is THAT all about?
That's insulting to me. Do these companies really believe that Americans are SO lame that we need some gigantic bag of whatever to trick us into buying it, so then when we open it, we can yell down and get an echo, the product is so far down into the abyss of the bag. Are Americans really so shallow and lame and can be tricked so easy that.....
Wait, nevermind...(cf: PT Barnum)
I'll be back when I try and figure out what the hell was I was going to say.....
October 27th, 2003
Here's another thing that really pisses me off...daylight savings time. What in the hell is that all about? Maybe it's because I love regular time so much. I'm in ecstasy right now...I love long dark nights. Plus, it feels like time slows down instead of how it is in the summer...when I think it's 7pm and I look at the clock and it's 9pm. I HATE THAT. What what IS Daylight Savings Time? It's the most illogical thing. We are doing what? "saving time?" How? Are we trying to save the light? Well, in the summer, the light is MORE...not less. We have less light now..shouldn't this be the time of daylight savings time? Think about it..it makes NO sense! Besides, we don't need to save any light, period! WE have this thing called electric lights! We can light up the damned neighborhood if we want to. What are we doing, trying to keep more light so we can get the crops in? What...do we have to go out and put up the livestock? Do we have to get up early and get the old iron stove lit, bring in wood? Ridiculous......
I think it should be done away with completely. I might find a campaign online and see if I can find something. It disrupts the inner clock when we change the clock back and forth.
Current Mood: cranky
|08:22 am - sooo annoyed........|
I was out last night looking at Halloween stuff, and I gotta tell you, it makes me mad as HELL when I see all that Christmas stuff just creeping up to the front of the store like a bad omen, crushing out all the Autumn/Halloween stuff. All the Halloween stuff is scattered on sale bins and thrown to the side, like it's a week after Halloween!! URGH!! It makes me so mad! I've been seeing that damned red and green since August..and I'm sick of it. I hate something crammed down my throat. No wonder we feel time is going by so fast!! They are saying it's two months into Christmas season, and Winter Solstice is still two months away!! And we think we don't have any time for anything. I'm sick of these damned stores pushing Christmas down my throat and shoving my beloved Halloween and Autumn to the side...*snarls*...and you know...I love Christmas/Winter Solstice. BUT..it has nothing to do with those stupid stores, and we shouldn't see ONE damned santa until AFTER Thanksgiving! grrr....
Just had to vent. Thanks for listening...*stomps off*
Current Mood: annoyed
October 23rd, 2003
Sometimes I can't believe the things that find their way into my life to piss me off and aggravate and make me throw the telephone and slam doors and just generally have an all'round screaming temper fit.
Gather together, all ye Lord of the Flies! Let's get atavistic and go lobo.
AURGH.....PHONE...AGAIN! NOOO... I will NOT vote for YOU!!
October 13th, 2003
|04:52 pm - don't disturb my fetal position|
Well well...what a fine display of neurotic nerves and twists am I? Why am I so anxious? Why can't I breath? Why can't I think? Why am I so fucked up? Why why why?? And YOU...don't answer that.
I'll answer whatever I want. You can only be fucked up if you are doing a comparison with that which is the opposite of you.
i love you
I said, shaddup....
Maybe I wanna be fucked up.
Obviously you do want that because you aren't taking your meds.
And yeah, I took them...used to take them. I don't care who knows.
Okay, maybe I do care, since I"m no longer taking them and bragged about it.
Well, good for me. I don't take them, so now I'll just suffocate from this hurricane inside that is my anxiety attack.
chemical imbalance my ass.
give me morphine.
stop the pain.
How do you spell existential?
October 11th, 2003
October 10th, 2003
|09:09 am - Just some nips and tucks and a million bucks.|
A friend here in LJ was wondering why it seemed like all the jerks get the beautiful women.
Oh my...what a loaded question. I could write on this for eternity.
Here's a little bit of my theory...
Both men and women~~well, people in general~~get together because of one thing~~"the payoff." We do what we do because of the payoff. I don't care if you're eating, drinking, walking somewhere, slicing your wrists, piercing your tongue, dying your hair purple...there's always some kind of payoff.
Physiological attraction is first (complete with the payoff theory~~"what do I get.") We judge by sight first, then the other senses fall in line...smell, touch, taste, hearing. Then, later, comes the psychological attraction...when you'll say, "wow, you're really /smart/intuitive/funny/sarcastic/stupid/etc.."
Here's the payoff math...
Is he good looking? No.
Is he surrounded by gorgeous women? Constantly.
Man+money/fame=anything you want.
Woman+good looks=anything you want.
It's like~~Here...you can have my beauty if I can have your money/fame.
Another example: Pamela Anderson.
I've read she's a dumb as a rock, BUT...she's with tons of rock stars.
Why? Her beauty and "arm candy" status is the trade/payoff, and they will give her:
the photo op, the bucks, the glamor, and maybe a black eye because they are so fucked up and abusive, which is her payoff.
Unless she's intelligent like Sharon Osbourne or Heather Locklear who will toss the abusive famous rock star out on his ass. Speaking of abusive, that leads me to Tommy Lee.
Is he handsome? Hell no.
BUT..do the math.
How about Anna Nicole Smith? She married that wrinkled up prune from Texas. Gee...I wonder WHY? Could it be his MILLIONS?
Another point...many women who are beautiful aren't so naturally, so they use a hundred tricks to achieve the surface of beauty. They will use everything from cosmetics to cosmetic surgery...they never develop their mind or spirit, just the body.
(Speaking of Howard Stern, yesterday he had this contest "who is america's smartest stripper" and he had two girls from the strip club, Scores.
He asked questions like:
"Who is Jonas Salk?" "uhm..."
"He discovered something very important"
"he's was a scientist, what did he discover?"
"who is Sirhan Sirhan?" and she said, "a rap singer?"
"No. He's the man who assassinated Robert Kennedy. You know who that is?"
"Yes. He was our president"
"where is your retina?" "in your neck?"
"where is the Superdome?" "in your head?"
"Name the four Beatles"
Anyway...*cough* All spiritual thought stresses the development of all three, mind, body, spirit.
How about Heinrich Himmler, the head man in Hitler's department of propaganda. We all have posters and magazines that tell us who/what is and isn't beautiful. Hmm..What's next?
Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Love you to Death" Type O Negative
October 7th, 2003
|09:44 pm - I had to edit this..that font was unreadable!!|
I'm not sure what font is showing up on your computer but you should see the name of this font I'm using! It's called "aliens ate my mum." The style is pretty weird, but the name cracks me up so I had to use it.
Right now, I'm watching~~for the first time~~Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, and it's cracking me up! It's so damn funny...
but at the moment, I'm in here writing in my journal and scribbling in friends' journals, because every five seconds, network tv has five thousand commercials.
I want some new icons and designs for my journal, too. Plus I have my webpage and my art gallery page I now have to set up....oh, show's back on!!
|05:22 pm - Sweet sweet Holly King.....|
I was just writing an entry in the autumn addicts, and it really made me think about how fast this month is going. I've just got to somehow figure out a way to make my time slow down a bit, so that beautiful October doesn't just fly by and I have no time with Her. The nights are so full of mystics and magick~~This is His time, the Shadow King rules.
I'm so elated each time I look out my window and see the colors changing. The whole world around me is shimmering with gold and amber light. The candle light perfumes the air around me. Cinnamon and clove hang heavy in the air. It's intoxicating for me. Autumn is enchanting. I really am spellbound.
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Into the Mystic // Van Morrison
Mmm, I am Lemon Flavoured.
I am bitter and twisted. Expect from me acerbic humour and sharp commentary. While I may seem nasty at first, I'm actually quite good company if I like you, so long as you don't mind a bit of cutting to the chase. What Flavour Are You?
Current Mood: good
Current Music: No Excuses ~~ Alice in Chains